Monday, October 17, 2005 Y
yeay!
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i miss us. *wails*
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isn't diz nice? tts a foto taken in bali.. er. i mean sentosa. hahaha!
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Sunday, October 16, 2005 Y
wet sunday.
met up w shawna last nite.
we din meet for very long. becoz.. we were all tired. or rather. i was v tired. haa. i tink we met at abt 11+.. left at 1230 or stg?
but it was a short but good time of catchin up. :)
as i was walkin hm, i was tokin to my old fren, mr toh. i tink becoz it was v late le.. den his reaction was v v slow. and he aint tokin much. almost bored me! haa. yea. but its realli v sweet of him to keep me company on e line til i got hm. it was such a long while we last chatted. i wld sae tt diz time was v different frm e last time we chat. there's a breakthru! haa.
as much as i wana get hm earlie.. so tt i can rest and also tt mr toh can leave for dreamland, i forgot to get my keys back frm shawna! goodness. i had to walk back to look for her! how forgetful can i get. haa. but last nite.. i felt rather warm. i duno y. kept perspirin durin e late nite.
well.. it was a great time last nite. got hm, bathe n ZzZz. haa.
i realli miss nana v much! haa. she's gettin crankier. haa. oopx. =X
tts wat i like abt her? wahaha. yea. ladie, cya on tues. i guess we'd be meetg up more often. lookg forward to tuesdays.
todae. it juz kept raining. kept raining. such a wet day. well. i beta stop complainin abt it. haa.
rena is sick. speedie recoverie, my darlin. everyone, pls keep her in your prayers. she caught a flu.. got cough.. sore throat. u noe, tt combi. haa. yea. she shall be healed!
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Thursday, October 13, 2005 Y
daren! used to gif him tuition.. suddenli saw diz pix.. such a cute lil boy
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thankfulness i thank Him for the fear i haf for Him in my life.
i thank Him for guiding me back to track wheneva im distracted.
i thank Him for moulding me.
putting me into situations. there, i noe i will breakthru & grow.
i thank Him for mending my heart when it was shattered into pieces.
i thank Him for the courage to say no when i am tempted.
i thank Him for the boldness to confess my trespasses,
admit my mistake to move on.
i thank Him for watching over me thru-out the times i felt so lost.
i thank Him for giving me a heart that is after Him n is quick to repent.
i thank Him for such a love He has for me.
i thank Him for His forgiveness.
i thank Him for His comfort when i break down into tears,
when i feel that i cant go on.
i thank Him for sending wise counsel in my life to support me.
i thank Him. i juz wana thank Him.
how many times have i broken His heart. still He forgives. if only i ask.
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005 Y
hiee everyone.
i guess next tym wheneva i blog. i muz put in all positive stuff. haa! becoz i figured my last entrie stirred some of us to ask me if im okie. haa!
ya. i am. at least i am out of my pathetic state now! i haf made my decision. and am once again. recharged. i am clear-minded enuff to noe wat to do. n if wat im doin now is rite. i am confident abt it. shuzhen is back into action. haahaa.
situations in life, truly, shld bring us closer to God. if it doesnt, pls do a heart check. =)
i am proud to declare that i am much closer to God aft diz incident. i came up stronger aft diz!
i cant say that i passed diz test of obedience with flying colors. or even passed. but it was a painful lesson learnt. which i will nv want to go thru it again. it is good to go thru lessons in life.. but too much of it.. er. haa. spare me! =P hee.
wat is ahead. i am uncertain. life is full of uncertainties. but i am willing to trust in Him tt He's making the necessary preparations for me. haa!
my breakthru aint tt far aft all, isnt it? *winks*
i am moving on. how abt u?
no longer i. but Christ. He lives in me.
dahua: hey huahua! whether u r gona see diz anot.. i still wana sae! thx for drivin me to east coast yestie nite! it was awesome. realli njoyed e trip out w u. i tink we shld meet earlier next tym. felt like a panda todae. haa. u haf realli strengthened my determination n motivated me to quickly get my car license! haa. though i dun haf a car yet. at least take one step at a time. yes, a car is not affordable within my means yet. BUT I BELIEVE I CAN OWN A CAR SOON!
all things are possible to those who believe!
anywae, reali got alot of things to catch up w u! meet up soon.. n... stop being a tai tai! haa! love ya loads!
cheers!
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005 Y
bleahh =P
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gray scale
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its me. taken w my new samsung fone. not too clear though
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read zhihong's blog. zhihong is my shifu. saw an interestg entrie.
he was juz sayin tt he was playin a game called metal slug 4. not too sure how many of u noe tt game. ive played it b4! haa. in diz game, it is abt eliminating the enemies who are zombies. if u get shot by them, u will turn into 1 too. not immediately but aft a few more shots.
he played. he kept goin forward even if he gets shot by e zombies, without avioding the missiles.
y? becoz he can alwaez simplie select [continue game] if he finished up his 5 'lives' available in e game [game over]. and he took advantage of tt.
some of us mite find diz familiar! haa.
sounds so unchallengin ah. y wld u wana play a game when u dun even take up e challenge frm e opponent and keep depending on the 'continue game' option to go on.
he pointed diz out. Jesus' blood is like the continue game option in our lives. how many times have we sinned? n yet e blood of Jesus was just there to cleanse us to let us go on in our liveS.
at the end of the game. u sure haf completed ur game. but.. there's a record showing the no. of times of continue option u used.
He asked diz qn:
when you go up to heaven today, how many times will you see that Jesus's blood is used to forgive your sins when you know the truth already?
and here is his comment:
Yes, we still tend to sin even after we are saved. But let's control it. Let's be a light to shine for JEsus. Oh yah... Keep sinning the same sin is like you playing Metal Slug 4, always being attacked by the same missiles and die at the same spot, and you can't progress on. It will only hinder your path to the next stage, unless you overcome it, you can never go to the next stage. So guys, let's move on, you know you should not do it, you will know the way to escape from you. FLEE!
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tears kept rolling down my cheeks. they were like water in an untightened tap. pain is wat i felt in my heart. confusion is e state of my mind. wat shld i do. wat shld i not do. God is e prince of peace. In Him, there is no confusion. In Him, all troubles vanish. Speak to me as only You can. I reject every rebellious actions and thoughts. I will be obedient. I want to be. Come and rule in my life. Another struggle means it is another chance for me to breakthru. praise e Lord. e breakthru.. though seemed so far, i noe it is nearing.
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Monday, October 10, 2005 Y
woow! haa. even as i blogged on fri noon during lunch.. as soon as i went for CG in e evenin, God oredi spoke into my situation. it went on to sat n sun.
its juz so awesome! cg on fri was great for me.. not too sure abt e rest. Worship was great for me. God juz restored my strength.
i had my breakthru in leadin testimonial. i felt v different even as i para-phrased. truly, it wasnt me but Him! =) e testimonials were juz simply awesome! interested to noe? ask me! haa.
e Word was even beta! though i haf heard e msg many times le, God is alwaez creative to send forth different revelations to me using the same sermon. SO BLESSED! i love JESUS!
Saturday!! Pst Carl preached a great word abt being
MORE THAN CONQUERORS in Christ. it was such a faith msg tt stirred many of us. in Service 3, it was Pastor Robert Ekh who preached. AWESOME! he tok abt family. children are actuali blessings to our lives, though most of e time they dun act like they r blessings. haa! it was a v life-relatable msg.
Sunday!!! guess who i saw?! DAHUA!!! huahua went for service 6! praise e Lord. i pray tt she got touched n blessed by e Word!
it was a busy sunday. went to serve in chinese church n thereaft, went to help out in e newcomers' training by Sis Bel. it was juz so funnie. i reali njoy e trainin w e new ppl n oso w all e other helpers n ICs, n of course, w Sis Bel.
fellowshippin w choir mems is takin on a change! =) *winks* haa.
we left at abt 10pm i guess. n i went to eat aft tt. i had diz yupian mifen tts so nice! it is at e BEST coffeeshop near church.. not e one beside KFC, e other one. v nice. can go try! haa.
n now. i juz finished bathin n clearin my stuff. goin to bed soon.
curren added me to his msn. im juz shocked. haa.a im sorrie la. it nv came across my mind tt he'd be an online person. haa.
life is takin on another journey. it has caught me in a dilemna. get it behind me!!! grrr. in e bible it says tt.. submit to God, resist the devil n he will flee from you. im doin tt rite now! haaa. FLEEE FROM ME!!!!
o. btw. i haf finali received my time table for my MIS course. orientation is diz thursday! o man. i got CG on thursday! n diz week's CG is gona be so goood. i shall call MIS tml n check out things.
my classes wld be on tuesdays n thursdays. frm next week to Jan 2006! o man. thank God it is juz 2 days. keke. but y thursdays!!! God shall provide a way.
8days countdown to MIS.
lein: dun mention it! ur talents shall be used to bless everyone! hope tt more assignments wld be placed into your hands! not only earning more $$ but oso havin more exposure n experience! btw, i haf yet to call clara yet. =X i shall settle w alvin first for the shooting n stuff.
rol: hey darliin gal. ya. i miss you v much too. hows everythin w everyone? ya.. general qn ah. haa. meet u up soon. u take good care. i realli miss goin ard for makan w u. haa. yong tau foo in katong? =P
kel: hey my dear fren. though we've been seein each other rather often over e weekends n all. smsing too. juz seemed tt we aint touchin e core of things. i miss e times we come together to share n fellowship. intimacy in frenship isnt determined by e qty of time spend but truly, by the quality of fellowship. i pray tt i haf not been too busy for us. i will make time. =) hope u too.
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Friday, October 07, 2005 Y
i realise tt i needa take feedback positively rather den e other way. many times when i get feedback frm my frenz.. or my clients.. or my colleagues. i tend to see it on e negative side tt i am not good enuf and start wonderin how come there are so many problems.
den again. its alwaez a good chance when problems come along, i can see each of them as an opportunity to grow and expand.
yestie, was a dae of rest. i went to donate blood on wednesday. ended up feelin weak e dae aft. stayed at hm.. slpt. din walk ard much. becoz once i take e first step, i wld feel tt my hse is spinning. haa. it was a dae of rest. a dae of readg.
late nite. i cldnt slp due to e excess slpin time in e dae. i started to tink. tink of many things. many many things. work. cg. life. relationships w ppl ard. family. i suddenli felt so weak. felt so lost. i din noe wat to do. becoz i feel tt im not performing in many areas. and am in a v passive mode.e last thing i shld eva feel is to give up. i feel worn out. i feel tt i dun haf e strength to go on. i juz wan to get away.
sometimes, i reali wonder if wat im doin is rite. i continue becoz i wana give diz person e support. n i dun wana stress him up w e load tts piling. i do wat i can do. but it is eatin into me. i feel worn out. i needa constantly check on the progress of things. every single thing. n i reali mean it.
many tymz, ppl onli noe how to follow. they onli carry out instructions. n not take initiative to get things done. even when things are placed in their hands, they r not even faithful enuf to get it done. **roars** i am stil tryin to come to terms with myself.
i come to a point that i wonder if it is tt i am not big hearted enuf. or izit becoz my capacity is not maximised enuf to take all these things. i was readin a book. n it says tt patience is e measure of our capacity. i pray tt God will enlighten me n maximise my capacity.
there n there, God entered into my train of tots. He assured me of the strength i needed to go on and He will be there to provide. i dun haf to feel inadequate. such a simple encouragement yet it warmed my heart in a tremendous way.
breakthru is e now! yeay!
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