i am movin on with You. without you.
yes i am. no longer i but He who lives in me. diz tym im realli goin to leave diz matter to God.
diz week had been xcitin. my frenship w Jesus grew. tremendousli. i hear His voice v clearly. every word, every encouragement, every challenge.
Jeremiah 29: 11-14
2 Timothy 1:7
2 Corinthians 2:9
though it isnt easy. i wil not choose e easy way out. i dun wan to.
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family pix. *winks*
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nice
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lil bear posin @ hm =D
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i like diz e best!
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another one~~
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i took diz when i was waitin for cab to leave NUS.. sunshine durin rain.. weird weather
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papa n me~ *smiles*
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candid! =P
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another nice one.. juz tt lightin can be beta~~
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cheeeeeze!
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i tink tt diz pix is nice!
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smile wider pls!
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me n big bearr..
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pink looks so nice on them! hee
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bear oso graduate le!
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bro, baoling & parentsss.. her mum looks so young!
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bro n his frenz
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yeay! e convocation ceremony is over! CHEERS!
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my bro receivin e cert.. but e foto's kinda blurrr...
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me and baoling
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Thursday, July 14, 2005 Y
14th of July marks e dae of my bro's convocation. i am so thrilled abt it. e whole thing abt goin to NUS, supportg my bro & his gf, takin pix aft pix. haa. im so happie.
bro msg me tellin me tt i can go for e ceremony. so i rushed down in a cab aft goin to kallang sector to get e digicam frm na. how can i be so forgetful not to borrow e cam frm na on wed? haa. managed to reach NUS.. university cultural centre @ abt 225pm. to tink tt i left e ofc @ abt 145 and headed to meet na first.
im juz so happie tt i can go in to support my bro. lo and behold, when i reached there, e usher showed me to a room.. im supposed to watch e ceremony thru CCTV! *faint. no xcitement, no atmosphere, babies cryin, children runnin ard. how i wish i was somewhere else. i juz told myself it'd be good enuf to be able to see e ceremony. haa. aft a short while, e ushers came into e room sayin there's seats on level 3 of e hall for us! i jumped up and joined e crowd who was oredi makin their wae out.
took e steps all e wae up to level 3. as per normal, u hear some dean or principal givin their speech. so i stayed as patient as i can be to listen and search for my bro's name in e list of graduates. lol.
though bro did not graduate w a first class honors or 2nd.. im happie for him tt he passed with merit. =D he juz looked diff todae. took fotos. walk ard e foyer area. nth much. but it was an event of a lifetime. i wil nv forget diz dae. when my bro went up e stage to receive his cert. i cheered so loudly on level 3 tt i din bother abt how ppl ard wld look @ me. awesome man. hahaha! u go, bro!
fotos r in na's digicam. when she uploads them and send them to me, i'd show u guys ya.
i bought e bear wearin e mortar board and e graduation gown. $35. xpensive but.. we were willin to spend. haa! once in a lifetime event! hahaha.
kor n baoling stayed in e campus as e 3 of us, mama, papa n myself, headed to e taxi stand. i guess mum n dad were v tired so they were rather quiet. i was lookg ard. many graduates were stil in their gown, takin fotos, rejoicin over diz convocation. for tt moment, i told myself tt one dae, i wana be like them. to be able to throw e mortar board in mid air n cheer over e success aft so much hard wk. i haven got over diz tot yet. haa. i hope it doesnt. now my aim: get my DIPLOMA!
tts abt guys. oya. i feel more charged up aft restg for 2 daes at hm. workin more effectively. im pickin up. haa. =P
thx for readg! =D
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*YOU mean happiness to ME!*trains of tots juz kept runnin thru my mind. within diz week, 5 ppl asked me when wld i be rising up.. as much as i love to serve God more, i noe tt im stil not ready yet. moreover, it isnt up to me to sae.. it is our Papa who gifs e green light isn't it? i do come to a point whereby i dunno where else i can move onto.
i noe there's more i can serve. but i am v much reserved. all diz battles in e mind.. can be done over w actions, change. like someone told me, change is a big word. who doesn't noe tt. haa.
y am i goin thru diz struggle? becoz i noe wat r e things i shld be givin up but im stil holdin it close to me. words like: sacrifice, change. doesnt sound too good to my carnal ears.
even as i confess it now, i haf made a decision to do stg abt my carnal nature. no more lazie reasons, no more xcuses.im not gona let my past failures or disappointments stop me. i noe i can grow.
i needa monitor my growth as i move on. becoz of Jesus, i noe i am able to move on! amen!
anywae,
tml is my brother's convocation! yeay!!! praise e Lord. im v xcited. though me n bro aint tt close aft we all went to sec skool.. i still feel v happie for him! somehow, there's an
xcitement in e air at hm. mama n dad are lookg forward to tml's big event! ha.
my dae bought my bro a new hp. im xcited for my bro.. i wonder which model did he get for kor. lol. im gona go support him tml. yeay! so xcitin. i wonder how its gona be like. i oso wana get a degree! haa. oya. btw,
CONGRATS, BRO!! n congrats to Baoling too! *winks*
im juz so happie tt God is puttin e whole family together. it is for a divine purpose! im gona spend quality tym w them tml!
so now, i shld go ZZ. muz be in good health. as much as i hate to sae, muz slp earlie! rest well! be wise! hahahahaa. nite, my frenZ! *muacks*
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Where The Love Lasts ForevaYour mercy found me
Upon the broken world
Lifted me beyond my failing
Into Your glory
My sin and shame dissolved
im now foreva yours
I stand
In love neva too late
To call you more den Lord
Glorious Friend
So i throw my life upon all that You are
Coz i know You gave it all for me
When all else fades
My soul will dance with You
Where the love lasts foreva
And foreva i will sing
Lord, foreva i will sing
How You gave Your life away
Just to save me
Lord, You've saved me~
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back in the actionoooopxx.. im so sori. hahaa. i haf a reason for not updatin my blog! listen to me! haa. i passed my lappie to my fren.. so i couldnt log on to e net.
i tot tt i din need my lappie as much as he did.. so i juz pass to him.
thank God my lappie helped him to clear some of his project work. jia you, jeremy! =D
well. i guess there's realli loads of stuff to update.
FIRSTLY, juz as i mentioned earlier tt i wana go studie.. now..
i haf decided.. to go to MIS.
http://www.mis.edu.sg/new/ProgOverview/local/dsm.htmmun suggested to me tt i can go to diz skool if im interested in marketin. kinda interestg! haa. when he first told me abt diz skool, i was contemplatin if i shld go ahead w it.
weird rite. i was e one who wanted to go studie, now tt e opportunity is rite b4 my eyes.. i cant decide. on tt dae, i went for BS @ FTMS, clemenceau rd. i prayed to God to gif me a direction to diz issue. i heard Him sae,
'I will maximise your capacity for what is to come.' tts it. i knew it was Him but my flesh din wish so.
e tot of committin to stg which needs 3 nites of my week for e next 18mths is scarie. i noe tt i wldnt like tt. becoz it requires DISCIPLINE. tt big word again. hahaa. anywae, i started to generate tots like, i wldnt be able to handle it if i go for e course. puttin CG meetgs and choir practises in consideration. i wldnt even haf tym for my frenz. i wil burn out. i kept tellin myself all the negative results.
when i got hm tt nite, i prayed. and He replied again. He wana stretch me like a rubber band.
this rubber band will expand v much but will nv snap. He wans me to come
out of my mediocre lifestyle, mediocre tinkin, out of my limitations which is all in e mind, out of my comfort zone.
i kinda noe tt, yes.. shuzhen, u shld go for it. as e saying goes.. e spirit is willing but e flesh is weak. it cldnt haf been more true. haa.
i seeked advise ard. to go or not. yes votes won.
one week later, i spoke to mun regardg diz. he shared w me e rubber band example and other stuff. *shocked* haa. interestg, isnt it? hahahahaha!
SECONDLY, i tink i realli miss my pals in sec skool. met up w them last week @ syl's grandpa's wake. kinda weird though.
met up w rol e followin mondae.
it was juz great. i went to get her belated berthdae present b4 goin to meet her.. had a hard tym searchin for stg for her. *confession* as i haven met her up for a long while, dun even noe wat she needs n stuff. so well.. i had to realli go by my gut feeel on wat to buy. ended up buyin a necklace, 2 pairs of earrings for her.
thank God tt she likes it. pheew. we chatted over dinner @ billy bombers. hope tt e present n dinner made up for e past few yrs de berthdae prezzies.
im guilty of not spendin enuf tym w my pals. not even gettin berthdae prezzies for them. =X
it is realli one of the rare chances for me n rol to really sit down n CHAT. juz chat. durin e chat, i realize tt... we kept sayin e same words n phrases at e same tym. interestg. hahaha. back to e good old daeS?
THIRDLY, i needa change. NOW.
i feeel like a pharisee. y? i noe alot of things. but i dun do it. i dun change. my mind is constantly goin on a renewal journey. yet, im not bugged to move. many tymz, i tried to change but i go back to sq one again. i feel tired of doin e same thing over n over again, not seeing e shuzhen whom God wans to mould me to be. i neeeda breakthru. I
CANOT STAND seeing MYSELF STAYIN STAGNANT! i need to yield on His strength more.... stop e talkin n do the walkin. FOURTHLY, i tink i shld go slp le. update soon. lol!
things will breakthru to new levels! amen!take care, my frenz! im juz a call or sms away! catch up soon. love ya loads.
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